With today’s photo being a self-portrait, I was thinking today was a great day to do a wordy “self-portrait”. Let’s jump right in!
By now, you know my name is Jessica. I was born and (mostly) raised in Illinois. My parents divorced when I was young. I lived primarily with my mom but during the summer, I would spend a lot of time with my dad. During my teenage years, I began my battle with anxiety. This has manifest into battles with depression as well over the years. At 16, I discovered I was pregnant. One month from turning 17– I delivered a beautiful baby girl. When I was 17, I married the father of my child(ren). By 18, we all were moved to Germany (thanks to the Air Force). Quickly thereafter, I graduated from high school and gave birth to a handsome baby boy! Over the next few years, a lot happened. These make for storytime posts at some point. A couple years later, I had was pregnant again. At 7 1/2 months pregnant we moved back to the states. To Colorado to be exact. Within weeks of finding a house, we met our last handsome baby boy. Over the next couple years, a lot of things happened. On my youngest son’s 2nd birthday, some of us went back to Illinois to start over. My husband and I began our divorce. Within a year, I was seeing someone seriously. Shortly thereafter, I was married for the second time. We lasted about a year. The first (and only) time I was physically harmed, I was done! I learned to act much quicker than I had with my first marriage. I spent the new few years as a “single” mom. I had a couple serious relationships in that time. None of them panned out very well though. I spent a year single while I worked on getting my life together. When I met Shawn, things moved pretty quickly! He moved into the house I was renting after about a month. (The joke is always made that I told him I didn’t want him to leave so he didn’t.) Then after several months, we finally found a house together in the city. A few years later, we got married!
At the current time, I still battle with anxiety and depression. Sometimes more so than other times! Over the years in my first marriage, I developed PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder). I also battle against several other chronic illnesses. But I also have a husband who I adore. Who supports me even when he doesn’t completely understand. I have a large family which keeps me busy. I have three fur-babies. I also have a full-time job. I often find myself wishing that I hadn’t been through quite so much crap. But I also know that without the crap, I wouldn’t be who I am today.
Stay tuned for tomorrow’s photo and blog post! If you want to participate, please leave your link down in the comments so I can go check out your photo challenge!
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